Japanese

I thought I could handle two language classes in one semester, namely German and Japanese. Apparently I couldn't be more wrong, especially considering how much gut-felt anger I am storing up against my Japanese class. I don't like the language yet (and I doubt if I ever will) and I hate the way in which I am learning it.

I finished my readings and weekly posting last night around 11pm and started my German and Japanese homework. The German Hausaufgaben, though long-winding and calculation-required, I was fine with. Then it was the Japanese Hiragana and the romanized greeting listening exercises(since we don't yet know enough of the Japanese Syllabary systems). I curbed my urge to iconize/graphicalize the 46 Hiragana, which according to our unnecessarily haughty and unsincerely polite teacher, was invented out of the reason that Kanji, i.e., Chinese Characters were too difficult for the Japanese women to master. Regardlessly, I actually got myself interested in how the Hiragana had its vestige in Kanji.

But when I finally reached the listening comprehension part, I was fully infuriated. The romanized sentences, e.g. 'watashi wa sensei desu' (I am a teacher), become such a ridicule of this allegedly beautifully oriental language. It is petrified by its desire to communicate to an alphabetical language. Its modernist stance is a sheer embarrassment. I know that the way it is taught is determined by the place where it is taught: romanization is a necessity and maybe Chinese and Korean and Sanskrit are all taught this way. Yet the condescending gesture it makes (e.g. forcing everybody to bow with 'Hi' 'Dozoo' etc) again becomes the biggest laughing stock in face of its surbodination to the longed 'other'. What is all these pretensions for? Don't you have better use of your energy? What is exactly wrong here?

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I realized that almost everyone on my 'to be connected' list has at one point or another learned some Japanese. I am so curious: were/are you ever angry with it? Or am I just over-reacting? Looking forward to answers.